PinsandNeedles

My blog has been a bit quiet of late...have had a few posts in my head, but exam study has kept me from putting them down on 'paper'. So there might be a few blogs from me in the next little while...will try to stagger them haha. I'm not sure how many of you reading this have been offered what appeared to be an amazing opportunity to forward your career or the perfect job or the opportunity for an amazing holiday...or any other opportunity that just seemed too good to be true...and then had to turn it down. It's a pretty foreign concept...most of us I think would jump at the chance to take that perfect or amazing opportunity. But recently that is just what I recently had to do. In the midst of studying for a very important exam and trying to juggle work and family, I have also been trying to apply for and obtain a job for next year. Having unfortunately missed out on an interview for the Paediatric Surgical Training Program this year by 0.24 of a mark, I had been ga...

I have had a couple of blog ideas in my head for at least a month, but I just haven't had time to get them down! So I am finally putting this one into words, and saving the other up for another day! I live a very solitary life. Don't get me wrong, I spend my life surrounded by people. But I often feel like I'm living in my own little world, or a bubble, bumping up against other people along the way, but not really connecting. It sometimes feels like I'm watching my life from outside it, and listening to the commentary and soundtrack in my head. I've been dwelling on this a bit lately, and I think there are many reasons for it. Firstly, I work long hours, and my job changes regularly. I do have a few close work friends, but most of the time work is long, stressful and busy and I tend to make acquaintances, but not deep friendships. It's hard to be motivated to give significantly of yourself to others when you are likely to move on in a few months and never...

It’s funny how for a few weeks there can be nothing to say, and then out of one moment, really, one flaw in my character showing through, the words are tumbling over themselves in my head, almost too fast for clarity. Yesterday was one of those days, when my human nature was totally at war with who I want to be and who I believe I’m created to be…and it all happened in a moment. I was about 1½ hrs off finishing my 24hr on call shift, and I was looking forward with great expectation to all that Easter Sunday had in store…I was going to race back to Brisbane in time for my church’s Easter service which I was really looking forward to, especially as Good Friday was washed out, and after working ½ the weekend I wanted some time to reflect on the amazing love story that is Easter. I was going to get some much-needed family time, and would see my baby all dressed up in the Easter outfit I had picked out for her. I was then going to enjoy watching her excitedly hunt for eggs for the fi...

I had every intention of making my second blog a funny one, to lighten the mood a little. Thought maybe a topic like ‘potty training by distance’ might be just the thing!! But there is something much more personal that I’ve had on my heart to share, and no matter how hard I try to push it back down inside, it comes back to me everyday. So, I hope that if I share this, it might help someone else out there who might just be going through something similar. Sooooo….early January I found out I was pregnant. To cut a long story short, my hubby and I had decided to start trying for number two, and to my disbelief, we fell pregnant straight away (it was a long wait the first time!!). I cannot possibly put into words how excited I was, as I had been longing to have another child for some time. I found out on New Year’s Day, the timing felt perfect, and we excitedly announced it to close family at my daughter’s second birthday party. Unfortunately, two days later, I lost the baby. It i...

I have been thinking for over a year and a half about starting a blog.   I’ve always been a bit hesitant. I guess because I’ve been scared it would come across as self-indulgent, or attention seeking. And if I’m honest, I’m scared no one would be interested in reading it.   But as I’ve thought about it, there are a few reasons to write one. Firstly, it might be somewhat therapeutic for me to get all of the thoughts, stories and musings that are continually going on in my head down onto ‘paper’.   After all, I have a running commentary going on in my head most of the time! Secondly, in my experience, there are not that many Christian, female surgical registrars out there who are juggling family and work, all while endeavouring to keep God as the centre. It might therefore be some comfort or encouragement to anyone out there attempting the same to stick at it! Thirdly, it might give those of you who already know me a little insight into why I am the way I am!! As far a...