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New Wine

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The problem of pain There is a human tendency to avoid pain. As a child, we learn early on that pain is bad. Of course it is, right? It hurts!! It can’t therefore be good!! For example, if we touch something hot and it burns us, we get hurt. We then tend to avoid touching that hot object in future. (Usually!!) I used to love to surf. I had a bunch of friends I would surf with, and I loved being out on the ocean away from the world, watching the waves crash. I was terrible at it, but I loved it. Then one summer I was with my family and I came off my board and my head went straight into a shallow sand bank. I had excruciating pain in my back and could barely get myself out of the surf and back down the beach to my family. The pain was so bad I couldn’t stay on the beach and had to go back to where we were staying to rest. I then passed out from the pain when I went to the bathroom and ended up having to go to hospital. In the end it was simply severe muscle spasm and...
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Grief

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I have had this topic on my heart for sometime, but I have put off writing on it. Firstly, because it is so present with me in this current season of my life, and I fear that I may have a completely different understanding of it when I eventually reach the point where it is not so raw. Secondly, because I tell myself that I am in no way an expert on grief, nor have I suffered anything close to what others have. Even 2 nights ago I sat down to start this blog, and stopped when I saw a story and photo of a mother cradling her stillborn child in her arms. As a mother of 2 healthy little girls, I cannot begin to comprehend that grief. I also cannot comprehend the grief of those who have suffered in war torn countries, where they have seen children and family members tortured or killed; I cannot even begin to understand their suffering. However, the topic will not leave me alone and so here I am, putting my thoughts onto paper, in the hope that my grief, while different to another’s, is s...
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What is fair??

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Well, it's been a long time, and I am wearing my heart on my sleeve with this one, but here goes. "It's not fair!" Such a familiar concept isn't it? It's something we learn from a very young age! If we think our sibling might have got more than us or something we didn't get, we would say those exact words! And I know that as a parent you try very hard to keep things fair between your children. As we progress into adulthood, I think we still cling to this concept of fairness. When we see those who are weak being abused by the strong, we cry out against the unfairness of it. If someone gets special treatment, we say, "It's not fair!" Even our 'Tall Poppy Syndrome" hinges on this idea of fairness. Over the last 2 years I have grappled with this concept. I relate to King David and Jeremiah so much. I think they grappled with this too! (Jeremiah 12:1; Psalm 10) As I have walked through the most difficult time of my life, as ...
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Finding Aimee

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I wrote this blog 2 months ago after my exam, but chickened out of posting it! Anyway, I thought I might as well post it now, although I'm not sure anyone will see it!!! Written 17/02/17 Thanks to life circumstances it has been a very long time since I wrote a blog post, and I’m not sure this is even worth writing about, haha, but I had an epiphany today and so thought I would put it down in words in case it is helpful to someone else. Feel free to stop reading now if you are bored already!!! Life has a way of getting away from us. I live a pretty full on life. I didn’t even realise how crazy it was until I was talking to someone yesterday and they seemed so shocked at my life! For me it’s just the norm so I don’t particularly notice that it is anything other than ordinary. However, I realised that in the midst of being a mum and a doctor, living on next to no sleep, studying for an exam, and trying to keep all of my juggling balls in the air, I lost me...
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Miracle Babies

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I know it has been a long time again between blog posts!! My crazy life has kept me from writing, however, as I sit here and contemplate a little life that could now come at anytime, I feel I need to share and give credit for this amazing little life where credit is due. Any of you who have read my other posts know that around this time last year I went through a miscarriage. I won’t say to much about it here (you can read my ‘Annie’ post!!), but suffice to say it was a difficult time, and I am eternally grateful to my God and to my husband for getting me through that. After the miscarriage it was not easy to fall pregnant again, and month after month appeared to pass without success (of course, it was not THAT long but it felt like it at the time!!) In April last year, our church then had 21 days of prayer an fasting. Now I have a close friend with whom I grew even closer after my miscarriage, as she had also been through something similar. My friend has a beautiful 3yo...
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